When The Fog Begins To Take Over My Being

the world is constantly spinning
my vision’s becoming a blur
in this earth that’s ever shifting
how will i be traveling further

when the fog is clouding my mind
i begin to stare at nothing
it seems to me i cannot find
an answer to this; anything

the search for an eternal peace
a rocky and uneven road
i am desperate for release
from this extremely heavy load


To Change or Not To Change

We always seem to question the people around us. We almost always criticize their ways and the outputs they create. We are always on the ready to point out other people’s mistakes, no matter how little, and ridicule them for their wrongdoing. Did we even bother considering that these people are also humans who commit mistakes? Hell, even the best of machines have that 0.01% chance of messing up. Nothing can ever be perfect. Nothing.

Before we go about demanding for change in society, we should look at ourselves first. We go around criticizing every person we see and mentioning how they could ‘make themselves better’ but we don’t even bother doing anything to fix our mediocre behavior and trashy attitude. We clamor for some sort of metamorphosis but we don’t do anything to help it take place. That’s not how it works.

If we truly want change in our community, we shouldn’t just go on a dramatic tirade about it and that’s it, no. If we want change, it should start within ourselves. We cannot be a better and fully-functional community if we have no idea how to be human beings first.

“I Swear on the River Styx…”

My eyes begin to water as I realize I’ve stared at my laptop screen far too long without blinking. I close my eyes tightly and hot tears come streaming down my cheeks. When the stinging pain subsides, I open my eyes and catch a glimpse of the time.

11:35 PM

It’s nearly the end of another day and I was barely productive.¬†The load of homework I have yet to finish looms high above me and I cringe at the thought of not submitting them all on time. It’s our sembreak but I’m still filled to the brim with stress. What a nice vacation this is.

It’s so messed up, really. They teach us to be scholarly and be on time but we all usually end up cramming and procrastinating… I’m not an exception. I could have finished my Chemistry worksheet days ago but I chose to read a novel that is entirely unrelated to school. I could have finished my Statistics homework but I opted to watch horror short films instead. Well, maybe the difficulty of the tasks at hand is a factor as to why I haven’t touched my papers ever since my first attempt but, that’s beside the point.

I don’t think any of us will be effective scholars until we stop putting things off until the last minute. Procrastination shouldn’t be part of our vocabulary. I know it’s easier said than done but, for our own sake, let’s just do our schoolwork in advance.

I swear on the River Styx that I shall not procrastinate ever again after this moment.

(And then you’ll see me stressing out the day before school resumes because I haven’t finished my requirements yet. Ha ha… hopefully not.)